I've been looking for something to keep me motivated. Anybody that trains knows that there are peaks and valleys involved. Motivation has not been difficult for me with Muay Thai, but BJJ is pushing my tolerance. I want to quit. Badly. If I do that, though, it will mean I am not living up to my potential. I KNOW I can do it, I just need to keep motivated. I've been slowly working my way through a book called "A Fighters Heart" by Sam Sheridan. It's probably not great literature, but it's nice to read. I really only crack it open when I'm dealing with my own valley. I picked up his second book "A Fighters Mind" for when I finish the other. I recently purchased Forrest Griffin's book, "Got Fight?" on a whim and I'm pleasantly surprised by it's content. Don't get me wrong, it's hyper testosterone and goofy, but there are quite a few gems in there. It's easy to read because it's entertaining. I'd actually recommend it!
So, having bolstered my resolve in the jiu-jitsu department, I decided to figure out what's "wrong" with the situation. Ok, I don't like they way they teach it at my academy. I was diagnosed early in life with learning disabilities (yeah, I know it sounds like bullshit, but I've seen enough in my lifetime to know I am wired completely different than most people) and I know the method they use to teach does not work for me in that regard. Especially with life making it difficult to get into class on a regular basis. I think I am going to drop the BJJ at the academy and then start doing private lessons with a friend...if she's still offering. The other problem is that they rearranged the Muay Thai class schedule so I can't do MT then BJJ right afterward. I've trained 6 days a week and it's just too much. I need my recovery days. That and I've become used to having two nights during the week to spend with, ya know, that guy that I sometimes live with when he's not traveling.
As far as pregnancy goes, we're trying again this month the old fashioned way. I should be ovulating sometime next weekend. Wish me luck!
